The 5AM Blues...

I know you're thinking I'm crazy for blogging at 5AM and eating Captain Crunch Berries. I gave in to the insomnia and finally got up. For whatever reason after my normal 4AM trip to the bathroom, I couldn't go back to sleep. The anxiety continues I suppose. Today is my last day of work until March 23rd. Yes Mom and Woody...I have fullfilled my plan on schedule with the help of Riley and lots of determination. I'm wondering if I have passed on my need to have a "plan" to him. Not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing. Jeremy pretty much goes with the flow and I have to know what is going on and plan for everything! Maybe he will be a happy medium of both. The last few weeks have been nothing but an emotional ride. Anxiety, excitement, fear..you name it, I've felt it. I think it's taking a toll on Jeremy now. Today is his birthday and with all the baby happenings he is full of different emotions too.

I'd like to think I've held it together pretty well during the pregnancy, but I would have to say this last month has been the hardest. All of the different emotions and feelings are completely unexpected. Some people have them the whole time, but thankfully I've been able to keep my sanity until now.

I will make my last "have-to" trip across the state line to Dalton this morning for the next 11 and a half weeks and I will have my last lunch with the girls today at Chili's before becoming a Mommy. I'm not going to miss the work portion I don't think too much, I will have my hands full, but I will miss the adult interaction I'm sure. And just how much HGTV will I be able to tolerate??

We can only hope that next year will be better and more delightful with our new addition to the family. It's been a rough year with my Mom's divorcce, my uncle passing, my other uncle being in the hospital for months (he is still there by the way), Powpaw Keller passing and just the normal stress of life and unneccessary events.

As the year closes today, I wish everyone a Happy New Year. I ask that you keep Jeremy and I in your thoughts and prayers the next few days as we near parenthood and the turning of a new chapter..The Unknown! I'm praying that things will take normal courses and we won't need to be induced on Sunday. If there is one dissappointment that will be it. I wanted more then anything to experience the excitement of going to the hospital and having to make all of those phone calls saying "He's on his way!!" But I know that if LeeAnn recommends the induction course, then it is for the best for Riley and me. Stupid old blood pressure! Hopefully the pills will work and we won't have to have the drip. Who knows??

Have a safe and Happy New Year....