Mommy's Lonely Night

Well, I actually have some time tonight to sit and blog. Jeremy is off tomorrow and has taken Riley to the mountain. They are staying the night!! I will be so lonely without them. Hercules and I are just going to hang out and do laundry tonight. Riley is getting so big and has grown so much. He weighs 12 pounds already! He goes next week for his 4 month well check and more stinky old shots. I remember the first few days at home and how hectic they seemed. Now there are small things that I will always remember and be a memory. For instance, the smell of Germ-X Lavender....it reminds me of the first few days at home. I felt like I bathed in the stuff. Or how when I'm feeding him at night he is longer and his little legs hang on me instead of being crunched up within my arms. I believe he has finally started to "know" other people, but really likes everyone. He smiles at anyone, but has a preference for women. :) He is so in tune with his schedule that it's unreal. He knows when it's time for bed and absolutely loves being naked now! He just kicks and giggles every time his diaper comes off. I'm not sure if that is a baby thing or a Sharp thing because Jeremy doesn't like wearing a shirt in warm weather. Riley is so sweet. In the evenings we spend as much time together as possible and he just smiles at Mommy and laughs. I can't wait until he can wrap his little arms around me. You always wonder if they know you love them, but I know he does. We aren't just blessed with a happy and good baby. He is that way because we fullfil his needs and then some. He doesn't have to wonder if we love him or are going to take care of him. When I see the trust in his eyes, my heart just flutters. He truly is our everything and was what we were missing in our lives.

I just wanted to upload some photos for you all to see. Today has been pretty rough on me. Riley was a little sick this weekend and his appetite has decreased some. I went to work today because he didn't have a fever. I'm thinking he has some teethies coming in just because of his other symptoms. I just can't stand not knowing what is wrong with him. He doesn't act sick. He continues to smile and go on like normal, but his eating is just in a funk right now. I feel like all the stress of the world is weighing on my shoulders right now. So many decisions and options??? What do I do??? I have serious issues about leaving Riley. I was hoping it would get better, but it is taking a lot longer than I expected. Oh the trying times of being a Mommy.

My Growing Little Man

Gosh, Riley has changed so much. He blows bubbles all day and wants to stick EVERYTHING in his mouth. He prefers his fist right now over teething toys. Just last night, I noticed when I put him to bed how he is filling up the bed. I remember when he was so little and the bed seemed so big for him. Now he fits the bed just perfect! He turns around just about every night in the bed. I can't wait for him to roll from his back to his belly! Jeremy & I were talking about the nights we wondered if he would ever sleep through the night. He only got up once when he did, but it seems like ages ago. Then he blessed us at 8 weeks by starting to sleep through the night. Now when I put him to bed and wake up it's just to kiss him good-bye for the day. I miss him soooo much during the day, but he makes it all go away every afternoon when I get home. He always just smiles at me like "Finally you're home!!!" At this moment, Riley and I are in the floor playing and he is cooing and smiling with so much excitement and energy. My heart is full of so much love that I never could imagine having this much to give to one little person. He has also become very interested in the TV. His favorite shows are Handy Manny, Mickey Mouse and Transformers. Honestly, I think he likes anything on TV because of the movements. I can't stand it that he likes it so much because his head just turns that way no matter what we are doing or what is going on. Riley has also started paying a lot more attention to Hercules, the cat. I bet his little mind is just circling thinking how he can't wait to get a hold of Hercules' tail. Goodness, where does the time go??

Happy Easter!

Powpaw, Riley & Jeremy

How handsome can you get??

Riley and Mommy

My little bunny!

Hanging out with Daddy. Yes, almost naked.

At Granny's April the 5th

Well, Riley had his first Easter today. What a joyful day it has been. Today, I'm feeling more blessed than normal. Jeremy joined us in church today, which was great! Riley is always so good during singing or preaching. We rarely have to go to the nursery, but it happens. After church today, we took Powpaw Sharp to Cracker Barrel to eat. He had a great time with the grandkids I believe. When we got home, we changed Riley's clothes and opened his present from the Easter Bunny and did our own little egg hunt...of course Riley found the prize egg with some cash for his bank. The Easter Bunny brought him a glow worm to sleep with. I can't say if he likes it or not because all he wants to do is eat it. I think we have started the teething process. He has been a little more fussy this weekend and lots and lots of slobber and hand sucking are happening. He was such a joy today. One of the ladies in church took him up front with her during the chior singing and he was just looking around...I was back there in tears because of how awesome it felt to see my son up front in church. I know he can't sing and probably had no idea what was going on, but to be there and feel the arms of God around me assuring me that everything going on in our lives was going to be okay, well I just can't explain that. Riley truly is a blessing to us and seems to be to the ones around him. We start another week at work tomorrow and hopefully it will be better than the last. Riley has gotten into a habit of waking up sometime through the night during the week or nights when he has to go to the sitter the next day. I think he knows he isn't going to be with Mommy or Daddy and just wants that extra time with us. Jeremy thinks I'm crazy, but he doesn't do it on the weekends or when Jeremy isn't working. What a smart baby we have!

3 months old!

Where do I begin?? Three months have gone by so quickly. Before I know it, Riley will be crawling and wanting to do anything but cuddle with Moma. Just in the last month, he has grown so much and changed even more. He mastered rolling from belly to back and rolls to his side from his back. Just last week he turned around in his bed through the night. We put him in facing one way and the next morning he was turned the other direction!! I've convinced myself that Riley will not forget me while I'm gone to work. When I get home, his eyes just light up and he follows my every move. It frustrates Jeremy if he is feeding him when I get home because Riley won't stay still to eat and he moves and wiggles trying to see me. I love it! We've had some frustrating times since I returned work the last couple of weeks. It's been a big change for us all. Thankfully, I have supportive family and friends. The days where I have cried going to work have been few. One of my most favorite things this month was when Riley really learned to laugh out loud. He has laughed before by accident, but he does it now on purpose and it is the cutest thing ever. My Granny actually is the best person to get him to laugh. Popa said it is because he thinks she looks funny!! Not true!! We had our 3 month pictures taken Saturday and as soon as I have access to them online I will pass along the information. I just get so amazed at how much he has changed since I brought him home. He doesn't look like the same baby. Every day when I come home I look him over to see if anything changed through the day. Call it silly if you want, but I can't help myself. He truly is my world and I cannot imagine life without him and really can't see how we made before him. He has brought so many blessings our way just by being here. He is a very loved little boy and I hope that he always feels that way. I worried that I would feel our bond fade away after I went back to work, but it has gotten stronger. There are days when he is clingy to me when I get home. I assume because he missed me more that day. I don't know how to explain it, but the way he looks at me and into my eyes just melts my heart every time. People tried to explain what being "Mommy" was, but really they can't. No one can. It really is a once in a lifetime thing and the feeling is unbelievable.